another piece of feelings I know...


sick of the tension / sick of the hunger
sick of you acting like I owe you this
find another place / to feed your greed
While I find a place to rest

I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don´t understand
-You´ll see it´s not meant to be-
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head

Maybe someday I´ll be just like you / and
step on people like you do and
run away the people I thought I knew
I remember back then who you were
You used to be calm / used to be strong
used to be generous / but you should´ve known
that you´d
wear out your welcome / now you see
how quiet it is / All alone / I´m so

double meaning.

1st one: Johnny Cash
"Love Is A Burning Thing
And It Makes A Fiery Ring
Bound By Wild Desire
I Fell Into A Ring Of Fire

I Fell Into A Burning Ring Of Fire
I Went Down, Down, Down
And The Flames Went Higher
And It Burns, Burns, Burns
The Ring Of Fire
The Ring Of Fire

The Taste Of Love Is Sweet
When Hearts Like Ours Meet
I Felt For You Like A Child
Oh, But The Fire Went Wild"

2nd meaning:
I am that close before I have to wear the ring. But this ring won´t stand for freedom or love... It´ll be hot like fire burning on my finger because of the lie which brought it there.
I went into a burning ring of fire because I´m effecting the life of three people with my behavior, my wish to break free and to follow my feeling and my hart. One I don´t even know but I´m effecting his realtionship...partwise. He is acting so inunderstandable....He dosen´t know how to treat her. And my soulmate?? Well..she set me on fire! Thats for sure! It is a feeling I never had before...makes me happy and afraid because you don´t know how to handle it...
How story ends? Don´t know. Isn´t there ashes after a fire always?
Hopefully not this time. But I don´t feel good. I´m not able to sleep, got permanent head-wires and would like to throw up every second I am facing the situation. Running away would be so easy...but it´ll mean breaking down ALL bridges behind me.

So I´m burning...whats next?